Illness and Fear

Ok, I dont mean to be morbid in my title, but the two seem to go together these days. At least for me.
All this talk about H1N1 has people paranoid. It's on TV, in messages we get at work and now I have papers coming in the mail. I am sure our rulers and medical professionals mean well, but they are going to cause more fear than anything else.

I woke up Monday morning with my whole body acheing. I thought nothing of it, besides the fact that I worked too hard on Sunday around the yard cleaning things up before the snow started (*gasp* I didn't mean to say the s word)!! Anyways, I took the day off to recuperate and relax my acheing muscles.
But when I woke up on Tuesday morning, things had gotten worst. My whole body ached, a different ache, and I was coughing like mad. I had a fever. And the coughing made me gag. It was horrible!! And of course, I became gripped with fear. What if this is the flu? I spent the day in bed and ate almost nothing. Then in the evening I watched a portion of this thing on TV about the H1N1 outbreak and why people SHOULD take the vaccine when it becomes available. I started to cry. I dont believe in flu shots. Especially now that I am pregnant and have this fear that it will make my baby deformed. Did you hear about this trial med they gave to women my grandma's age when they were pregnant?? Made their babies deformed if they took it.

Why am I telling you all this? I had to get it off my chest. I hate fear, and illness. But I dont want to live in fear. We have a great God who is able to protect me and my baby. I just need to learn to be wise and keep my hands out of my mouth (please slap my hand if you see me biting my nails).