For weeks now I have been feeling the pressure of a new job, the unknown, as well as many other little things that bring me down each day. At first, I kept repeating to myself that things would get better with time that I just needed to adjust to the new pace and the new demands. But, there is always something new that happens which causes me to be distraught and stressed out. This week, it has been the failure to get Internet access at home, or log-in to my work profile from anyone else’s house, as well as the kitten going to the Vet to get neutered and declawed (front paws only). The computer problems have consumed my every waking thought, and the kitten’s well-being has given me a small glimpse of what I will look like when I have kids to worry about. LOL (For the moms reading this, I know having a child is not like having a cat, but I am a sensitive person, remember?!) And just when I thought things were getting better, they seem to get worst. And I am exhausted. (For you cat lovers, my kitten is fine, but he is really clingy and afraid of going for a ride in the car).
I had been praying, asking God to guide me and let it all work out. And I had been feeling like God wasn’t answering me.
Then yesterday evening, my sister Cheryl lent me a book which she and our youngest sister Jessica had read. It is called “A Woman and Her God”. I started reading it today. The first chapter is about just that, our relationship with God. I thought I had a pretty good relationship with Him, but after reading that chapter, I’ve realized I have a lot of work to do. It was nothing I hadn’t read before, but God knew that I needed to be reminded or these truths. For too long I have been trying to fill the void in my heart and soul with the love and affirmation of others around me. And this love and affirmation is not a sin, but it is not enough because God should be the One to fill this void and the love and affirmation of others will be a bonus.
*sigh* Now that God has revealed this to me, I am asked to put it into practice. Easier said than done, I can assure you, because our old ways come back like the plague.

But God is good. He knows exactly what we need and knows exactly when we are ready to hear it.