The year 2010 was filled with many different emotions for me. I realized for the first time just how insecure and scared I was when it came to change. Not just mundane change (new office, new tasks at work), but real change like a new baby, new responsibilities and new things the Lord wants me to work on.
I am so grateful for Coralie. She is my ray of sunshine. Even on days when she discourages me with her lack of sleep or her crying for no reason, I can still say that she makes me happy. I never thought I would want to be a mom. When I was younger I told people I would never have children. And now, I can't imagine life without her. Just this week I got a call from the daycare where she will be going when I return to work in May. It made my heart break just thinking that I would spend my days away from her. But this was something I knew would happen, and I can honestly say I was in denial and did not want to think about it.
Anyways, enough with the negative. Coralie has started walking in an old fashion walker that my brother-in-law Yves had when he was young. She runs after the cats and gets into things that she normally couldn't get a hold of. It is facinating seeing her discouver sounds, objects and even people. She is IN LOVE with her cousin Simon. It is so amazing to see.
The year 2010 also brough changes for my husband. He is now studying to start his own business. It has been quite a change for us. At first he was hardly ever home, working days and in school at night (until 10pm). But since the holidays, he's been home more during the day and it is such a blessing. I am excited to see the special bond he has with his daughter. And it is fun being able to go out and do things with him during the day. It will be harder when he starts school again next week, but I am learning to be thankful for the little things and to remind myself of them.
I am really looking forward to the year 2011 and all that the Lord will bring into our lives, even if some of those things may not be pleasant. I am excited to see how He will make us grow and change,
and whether He will give Coralie a little brother or sister.
I am also looking forward to seeing how He will bless those around me.
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